We don't have to talk about things you don't want to talk about, but if you think of them when we're actually in contact, I will probably get at least flashes before I shut them down. Which I will do, most likely, unless something about them transfixes or triggers me.
I meant exactly what I said. Everyone has them.
Antheans don't often seem to have the really violent ones, but everyone has them. If you were thinking, as some people seem to do, that nobody else in the world thinks the terrible things you have thought without meaning to think them, you're absolutely wrong.
Being Cybertronian makes it easier to consciously delete them, but only if you don't get caught up in them and become anxious before you remember you're able to do that.
Your brain stores everything rather haphazardly and if you don't sleep or enter defragmentation cycles often enough, things that don't go together at all are stored right next to each other. Sometimes when you're not thinking consciously, you'll retrieve different concepts that don't go together and most of the time you won't pay attention because it's simply absurd. But sometimes the random brain stimulation means you generate something horrible, particularly when you're really angry or frustrated.
It doesn't mean anything unless you decide you like the awful idea. And even if you like it enough to entertain it briefly, but not enough to do it, it still doesn't count, because you didn't do it.
Unfortunately, I get to share these anyway sometimes, particularly when they're upsetting enough that the person who's having them pays attention to them. But yes, we all have them. I certainly do. I've had plenty of awful thoughts about people I love, but as long as I find them repugnant, I don't need to worry that I'll ever want to do them.
Re: Soundwave
I meant exactly what I said. Everyone has them.
Antheans don't often seem to have the really violent ones, but everyone has them. If you were thinking, as some people seem to do, that nobody else in the world thinks the terrible things you have thought without meaning to think them, you're absolutely wrong.
Being Cybertronian makes it easier to consciously delete them, but only if you don't get caught up in them and become anxious before you remember you're able to do that.
Your brain stores everything rather haphazardly and if you don't sleep or enter defragmentation cycles often enough, things that don't go together at all are stored right next to each other. Sometimes when you're not thinking consciously, you'll retrieve different concepts that don't go together and most of the time you won't pay attention because it's simply absurd. But sometimes the random brain stimulation means you generate something horrible, particularly when you're really angry or frustrated.
It doesn't mean anything unless you decide you like the awful idea. And even if you like it enough to entertain it briefly, but not enough to do it, it still doesn't count, because you didn't do it.
Unfortunately, I get to share these anyway sometimes, particularly when they're upsetting enough that the person who's having them pays attention to them. But yes, we all have them. I certainly do. I've had plenty of awful thoughts about people I love, but as long as I find them repugnant, I don't need to worry that I'll ever want to do them.