I know this is scary; sooner is better than later, but uninterrupted is also better than potentially on call. So I understand that we will all of us have to set time aside. At least we can leave my sister and Esme in charge at the Embassy. Don't be afraid. I'm not trying to seduce you, and Soundwave definitely isn't.
And even though you don't want to control him...
Soundwave and I were forced to go through a procedure long ago that gave him more control over my decisions and actions than either of us wanted, and it took us a very long time to get that reversed. During that time he would often not tell me how he felt about things I was doing out of the fear that confessing his feelings to me would affect my ability to choose whether or not to do them.
This had an absolutely terrible effect on our relationship, because not telling me what he did or didn't like didn't stop him from disliking it and feeling bad about it.
You do not have the ability to control Megatron. He is a free agent. So you need to tell him if you don't like something he's doing, has done, or wants to do. He may decide to do it anyway. You may even have to argue about it. But he's not going to leave you. He's your spark-mate. Your conjunx in all but name. Give him the ability to make an informed decision about things that frighten you and things that upset you, so that you don't put him in the position of repeatedly upsetting you while being told that it's his absolute right to do as he pleases. It is his right. It's also his right to know if there are going to be consequences to his actions, and if you know he's going to make you angry, you should put it into words, because the spark-bond is difficult in that it isn't always clear who's having a painful emotion and it's never necessarily clear why they are having it, without a conversation.
Take my advice, please. I've been in a spark-bond for four million years and it's still very strong, despite the fact that we have both managed to screw up impressively and with great panache. I mean. I got caught fucking Skywarp because he decided to teleport with me and we both got stuck in a damn wall. Do you think I'd have let him attempt that if I'd known it would annoy the slag out of Soundwave?
We're still okay. Everything will be okay as long as you just love each other. I know you're a liar sometimes whether you want to be or not, and we all love you anyway. But please do try to avoid lying through a spark=bond; it always goes badly.
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And even though you don't want to control him...
Soundwave and I were forced to go through a procedure long ago that gave him more control over my decisions and actions than either of us wanted, and it took us a very long time to get that reversed. During that time he would often not tell me how he felt about things I was doing out of the fear that confessing his feelings to me would affect my ability to choose whether or not to do them.
This had an absolutely terrible effect on our relationship, because not telling me what he did or didn't like didn't stop him from disliking it and feeling bad about it.
You do not have the ability to control Megatron. He is a free agent. So you need to tell him if you don't like something he's doing, has done, or wants to do. He may decide to do it anyway. You may even have to argue about it. But he's not going to leave you. He's your spark-mate. Your conjunx in all but name. Give him the ability to make an informed decision about things that frighten you and things that upset you, so that you don't put him in the position of repeatedly upsetting you while being told that it's his absolute right to do as he pleases. It is his right. It's also his right to know if there are going to be consequences to his actions, and if you know he's going to make you angry, you should put it into words, because the spark-bond is difficult in that it isn't always clear who's having a painful emotion and it's never necessarily clear why they are having it, without a conversation.
Take my advice, please. I've been in a spark-bond for four million years and it's still very strong, despite the fact that we have both managed to screw up impressively and with great panache. I mean. I got caught fucking Skywarp because he decided to teleport with me and we both got stuck in a damn wall. Do you think I'd have let him attempt that if I'd known it would annoy the slag out of Soundwave?
We're still okay. Everything will be okay as long as you just love each other. I know you're a liar sometimes whether you want to be or not, and we all love you anyway. But please do try to avoid lying through a spark=bond; it always goes badly.