Not to make you go on discussing something painful, but will I recognise the Mind Stone when I hear it? We don't have to be in mental contact for me to hear surface thoughts. I wear external shields so that I don't hear everyone's surface thoughts. I know that frightens some people, and I'm sorry about it, but I can't help the way my spark came out of the ground, or what it did to my brain module during my forging.
Your anti-conscience sounds as though it is a bit more complex and insistent than most people's intrusive thoughts are. But being told all your life that you are bad and there is something wrong with you would make you pay attention to those thoughts, and give them more power than another person just as powerful might have given them; it doesn't mean that you are innately malicious.
I feel that if you were innately malicious, I'd know. I have had a lot of experience dealing with the minds of malicious people. You are nothing like Ravage's abuser, or Starscream at his worst, or Scorponok, or Tarn and the rest of that crew. Like me, you have been known to derive joy from the pain of others, but only those who have caused enough pain to merit it.
Your mind has twists and turns and tricks, but I like minds like that. They're interesting, and their ability to compartmentalise limits the amount of pain they're able to inflict upon me without meaning to. There are disadvantages--Ravage, when I first met her, was able to hide the source of her pain from me for quite some time, which was especially frustrating because when I first met her, all that I wanted to do, other than find my way back to sanity, was to take it away. But around people like Ravage and Megatron and you, I'm not constantly barraged by trauma I have no power to address, where the sufferer would only be further harmed by the knowledge that I, as a stranger, was aware of it.
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Your anti-conscience sounds as though it is a bit more complex and insistent than most people's intrusive thoughts are. But being told all your life that you are bad and there is something wrong with you would make you pay attention to those thoughts, and give them more power than another person just as powerful might have given them; it doesn't mean that you are innately malicious.
I feel that if you were innately malicious, I'd know. I have had a lot of experience dealing with the minds of malicious people. You are nothing like Ravage's abuser, or Starscream at his worst, or Scorponok, or Tarn and the rest of that crew. Like me, you have been known to derive joy from the pain of others, but only those who have caused enough pain to merit it.
Your mind has twists and turns and tricks, but I like minds like that. They're interesting, and their ability to compartmentalise limits the amount of pain they're able to inflict upon me without meaning to. There are disadvantages--Ravage, when I first met her, was able to hide the source of her pain from me for quite some time, which was especially frustrating because when I first met her, all that I wanted to do, other than find my way back to sanity, was to take it away. But around people like Ravage and Megatron and you, I'm not constantly barraged by trauma I have no power to address, where the sufferer would only be further harmed by the knowledge that I, as a stranger, was aware of it.